Today's Dare
If at all possible, try to initiate sex with your Husband or Wife today. Do this in a way that honors what your spouse has told you (or implied to you) about what they need from you sexually. Ask God to make this enjoyable for both of you as well as a path to a greater intimacy.
Was this a satisfying experience for you? If it didn't turn out the way you'd hoped, what do you thing is complicating matters? How you committed this to prayer? If it was a true blessing for both of you, what can you learn from this for the future?
hmmm...well..im not going into detail on this one!! :) LOL
Although today was pretty awesome. I cleaned the ENTIRE house and my back hurt me sooo bad. Dave did give me a couple tiny back rubs and he put the girls to bed so I didnt have to go upstairs for the 100th time. We had a little tizzy and I went to bed alone. So this dare did not get completed YET...but it will. I feel as if I can move on because this is something I dont want to do..but..ya know..something I guess I kind of have to.
Sometimes I just want to list the things that I want him to do for me. Not in the sexual manner, just in the manner of being nice. What happened to my morning kiss before he left for work? What happened to our very often shower time just to chat? What happened to all the cute cds he would make for me? Ya know? Im like trying to make things a little more special and I feel so one sided some days.
I did cry before bed last night because of our tizzy because he never asks me to stay or says he wants me to come home if I do leave. He doesnt say he loves me on his own or doesnt tell me to have a good day. I feel like I try and I want so badly to say "hey! realize this!" But even doing so..I get no response. At least not the one Im looking for. I think it might push him farther away and then I get even more discouraged. BUT I continue on with the dares and just leave things be. All I can say is that I am trying regardless if he is or not. Which I guess, some days he does put more effort then normal..but most days are just him in his little world. Unknowing about what is actually going on inside my head and the hurt that I feel. All I can do is hope that he sees I am trying and pray that he changes or at least accepts the challenge.
Favotie Phrase
You are the one person called and designed by God to meet your spouse's sexual needs.
This..this is why I disagree with Porn and cheating and all other forms.
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